Trust

Many days have passed since we resolved to begin a journey together. A journey which we agreed to embark upon telling each other we'll always trust each other- no matter what happens. That resolve was weakened by my mistakes and it was very late when I realised disclosure without hesitating for a moment was the key to earning one's trust and I did that. Even if I was embarrassed to share certain things with you I disclosed those to you - not fearing that I might lose you, not hesitating at all. But something happened in the interim- perhaps my realisation happened very late or perhaps I had done irredeemable damage by then. I am not sure- what I am sure of is the fact that I ever since the realisation dawned upon me, I have been honest with you - like I have been with no one else, perhaps not even to myself. In spite of this when I find that what I have gained in terms of your trust is a pittance I feel truly and terribly hurt. I just want to escape from this harsh reality and go hide myself somewhere. I don't know what to do or whom to go to.